How should I feel now

I have been scolded quite badly lately. Someone said I'm fierce and I do agree that my temper sucks. Sometimes I really don't even know what is the point of being alive. I hate the fact that my parents actually brought me to this world. Happiness is so short. It can't even last for fuking 24 hours. Everything is just a dream. Lies everywhere. Sometimes all I want is someone to be there for me to rant to. Guess what. The person I use to rant to is now the one scolding me. Is it wrong to be insecure? Why does it seems like everthing i does is all wrong. I don't know how should I feel right now. Things are getting harder each day. I feel like giving up on everything I have. I just wanna feel some love but where is the love. It's just me. I'm never good enough for anyone..

    It should be a happy day but it seems like I'm spoiling it. I just want to cry to sleep and never wake up. I'm those type of people who tends to overthink a lot but whenever I tweet about my feelings I get scolded. I do find  myself a pain in everyone's ass because I keep spamming their timeline.
     Actually while typing this, I'm sort of doing reflection. I can't take jokes. I rage easily especially when I'm in the bad mood. Sometimes I just wanna sleep until Poly because secondary life is too too tiring. I am so use to being emo on twitter and now you want me to be happy. I mean it is difficult for me to change. I did try my best it's just that you didn't see it.. 
     Whenever I hear someone saying they are having tough life and stuff,I always think that I'm in a worst situation than them. I cared so much but actually who will appreciate it.. My friends? They all have their own bffs. tbh I'm thankful for Janis,Kim,Rei,Mel and other ppl. They do care for me but it's just that I don't know how to appreciate. I don't wanna say too much because I feel like I should be blamed because of my bad temper. I should learn to stay calmer. Are you willing to give me time or you have already given up on me? 

to myself and others who are facing same problem as me

Short post but this is all i wanna say. 
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